Anita,

its been better today. I went to a neighbors single women’s dinner last night.  I’m better with the kids but yesterday was a real struggle and I’m not sure why.

i feel a sense of panic when im alone it’s hard to describe. I think maybe I’m used to chaos and yelling and there is only silence. I have to take meds each night because around 8 pm the panic really starts.  I’m hoping each night will get a little better.  This is a huge adjustment. The women in the group were very helpful and said all of my feelings were normal and would pass.  I mentioned a little bit about M. And I don’t feel shame anymore. I just feel like I escaped from something very bad for me and that he is a very bad person to do what he did.

Lindsey