Hannah,
Have you done anything about anita’s suggestion in looking into CBT?
It seems that you are obsessing about this guy and worrying about how and when he will respond to you.
It does not seem healthy for having your world revolve around him and how he responds to you.
CBT helps you become aware of inaccurate or negative thinking so you can view challenging situations more clearly and respond to them in a more effective way. The goal of cognitive behavior therapy is to teach patients that while they cannot control every aspect of the world around them, they can take control of how they interpret and deal with things in their environment.
Mark
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 