well, it’s been awhile since i’ve posted on here.  no really thrilled to say that i’m still thinking bout her everyday.  This is killing me.  I really don’t understand how i can feel like this about someone so intensely.  It plagues my thoughts so much.  I want to contact her so freakin bad.  I sometimes think maybe if we did meet, somehow i would not feel this way anymore.  Like i would think why did i love her so much and be able to move on.  and then i think if we could meet again that we would both connect like before and be able to start over.  This is by far the hardest thing I have ever dealt with in my life.  I always thought I was stronger than this.  Very defeating.