Anita,

You ask really good questions.  I guess what I mean by us growing up together is I was always with her.  She did everything for me; picked out my outfits, did my hair, and made most of my decisions for me really.  I had a hard time going to school and not being with her; I cried everyday the first week of school.  I can remember suddenly missing her at different times in grammar school.  I remember everything embarrassing me in middle school. I suddenly felt ugly when puberty hit and I was slow to develop.  In high school I continued to be very sensitive.  Dating was hard because I was really shy until around 17.  The summer before senior year of high school is when I started barely eating.  I was 17 and had a 21 year old boyfriend.  I started drinking and smoking pot.  I felt like I was not in control of anything in my life.  I could control what I ate but I didn’t like myself.  I knew I was different and felt hollow.

Ps- my counseling session is Wednesday May 2nd.  I’m an idiot lol.

Lindsey