Dear Anita,

Thank you for using the word elegance, I love this word, and it resonates with me.

I would like for you to, if you will, elaborate on this some more:

The knowing required now is the (for a while) excruciating moment by moment by moment acting elegant, acting calm, according to your intellectual knowledge. The acting itself, moment by moment, hour by hour, all day is the knowledge I am talking about.

In the next statement, you elaborated more.  In one way, is it like making sure I engage in calm, revert back to it – in a way is it “fake it till you make it?”