Hi Rin,

You are in a kinda sorta relationship which I am guessing doesn’t match up to the previous one you had in some way.  Whilst you are harboring these thoughts, you are not free to be in a new relationship.  You have conflict going on.  On the one hand you want to give him a good slap and on the other you want him to see the change in you, fall in love with you all over again and beg you to go back to him.  Neither of these things are likely to happen.  You are not in love with him but he is in your heart.  This is what most people call love.  There is a line in a poem about falling in love which says “The head does it’s best but the heart is the boss”.

Find a quiet space.  Forgive your ex for the hurt he caused you, let him go with love and wish him well on his journey through life.

Best Wishes

Peggy