okay,

so I feel innately there is USE in what I am going through. In general.  So lets take this past month.  July – fourth of July – the horrific wife, how I felt after.  London, the horrific cousin, my breakdown after.  And current.

I feel that  I am going through things, learning, and processing. It truly feels this way.

Yet on the outside its cyclical – up and down – up and down. “fine” then lashing at my husband, a little better – then “lashing

So Anita, according to you (and I am sorry if it is a pressured question at all) – according to you – do you see that any of these ups and downs have healing value – or is it just meaningless distress?