Dear Anita,
Yes I agree. I am actually looking on the Internet for more of these workshop type things. Let me know if you know any resources like this whether it be books or online. I know you will be typing more notes in the future and I know there will be more prompts there as well. If I keep at it like it it is homework it can be truly life altering. I can see it already. Let’s see what content we both come up with as “homework”
Today I made not one but two appointments with therapists. Typical right, when I needed to do something I didn’t just do it once I made sure to have another option. I want to try 2 individuals out and see how I feel so I don’t feel anxiety of having to feel “stuck” I notice this anxiety of not having options (I will elaborate on that after) also I know neither may be a good fit and maybe best of all will be working at home on workshops! But at least I can try
Well here’s the thing, the first lady I found seems great, she is a female that is probably in her 40s or 50s, she even called me on the phone for an initial phone call for about 45 minutes.
The other man is a PhD that as well written and our faculty at NYU, he has dealt a lot with a lot of trauma and his focus is including Marital and sexual healing. It occurred to me when I read that that therapists can actually talk openly about this stuff! See I never bring this up, not because I am simply shy- but the sexual aspect of my marriage is an afterthought these days. I hardly think of it – and it is not a priority as I don’t have any true joy or passion in that realm these days for a long time. That part of me/my life is entirely numb.
Clearly that needs to be attended to. Perhaps in couples and or solo therapy with this male therapist.
I will attend to the other part of your post in a little. I wanted to tell you that part first.
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