Emi,

It sounds like you have fear on what *can* happen in the future.  You are afraid of your feelings after you move away.  This is future thinking.  You are already convinced that you will be sad, miserable, lonely before you even move.  You *may* be all that and more AND you will also be embarking on a great new experience.  I believe we either come from a place of fear or from love when we meet life.  I invite you to focus on love, on gratitude, on appreciation, on excitement, on opportunity for this adventure.  If you focus on what is behind you rather than what is in front of you then you will not fully appreciate and benefit from your life.

Mark