Hi Grenada,

What stood out to me in your last post was the idea of “I thought I had chemistry but it actually was addiction to drama”. I think that may have been true for me.  If you  the feel comfortable answering, please could you tell me how “chemistry/drama” feel differently to the deep and true chemistry you felt for the person you love? I don’t know the difference or haven’t felt the difference.

You sound very strong in that fact you aren’t and haven’t been beating yourself up about not realising your feelings sooner. In my own experience I find feelings so hold to get a grasp of, so I can empathise with not seeing how you felt for a while. I think things like that can take time. It sounds frustating, and like a painful and hard situation in that they liked you and you didn’t realise and when you liked them, they admitted it to but pulled away.

What things have you been doing to move on since they have not reached out anymore? Do you still work with them at work?  I find I am doing okay but a certain song or someone’s facial expression or way of walking or some other trigger will get to me and the emotions come right back up. I don’t know whether the sense of loss for me is also made longer by the fact that I struggle to get out of bed in the morning and actually function eg the whole world seems bleak and empty so my mind goes back to a time where I felt a sense of home and then gets caught up. There is alot of advice to stay present in the moment, but doing that just for 5 minutes a day is hard for me, it feels my head is anywhere but.