Dear CluelessCarrot:

It sounds very good, but in every sentence you wrote there is so much work to do, work for you to do and work for the two of you to do together, if you were to get into a relationship again.

That “self doubt” you mentioned above, that is what kept you distant from her during the five years, you feeling that she didn’t like you or love you- it is that feeling that kept you away from that “love absolute” while in the first five years, and it kept you away from her in all ways for another five years.

Do you know the origin of this self doubt, when it started in your life (before you met her)?

anita