Ah I have heard of twin flames but dont anything about it, just heard the term so I will Google that. I have not heard of the law of polarity either so thank goodness for the internet!

I think you hit the nail on the head when saying that if you aren’t ready to hear something it won’t sink in.

What do you mean about her choosing the dark? Like choosing to stay down? Or choosing to be in denial about her feelings/life?

I like the idea of what you said about trusting life and that it works out the best way for us and I can totally see how it links to self trust as I don’t trust myself at all – and this relationship with him showed that- but also I don’t trust life at all. I did not expect to fall in love or someone like him to love me back for the short time he did e.g I did not expect any good thing to happen.

Your dream  with L sounds eye opening in that it showed it was both of you running from different things. Did you think that at the time eg you were running too or only after the dream? Funny how things work out. I do believe in the power of dreams eg I had a dream that I met up with him after he was married and asked “do you have any regrets” and he said no I am happy with my wife she is the one. I then woke up and my heart was literally burning. Very hard to hear. I had another where I had waited to talk to him in a car park and he ignored me and got in his car and drove off. I ran after the car and he saw me and shook his head with tight lips and looked so angry and disproving at me. I also had a dream about 10 months ago after I had bumped into him and he said he would never speak to me again, of him behind a changing room door smiling at me. We talked for a small while then the door was closing and he was getting fancy dress outfits put on him so he was getting more and more covered up and I just watched until his face was covered. I kind of got the impression after that dream that he was did not have any hard feelings toward  me. I don’t know. Probably wishful thinking. I did think, because of these dreams maybe my consciousness and his are meeting in this way in the kind of dream world but who knows. I have had dreams before that have come true many years later with details I would not of known otherwise eg once I dreamt about the office and computer I would work at at my first job and that was what happenes about 6 years later.. but who knows ! It is hard when I find the dreams painful eg the one in the car and also when he said no regrets, my heart hurt so much and I felt so alone when I woke up. Have you dreamt of L since?

Beinga life coach sounds a rewarding career. I think most people would like a helping hand and someone to help make sense of everything. It sounds like the training happened just at the right time.

I also get what you mean about focusing on the past as it distracts us from the present time. I find my mind going to him when I am sad or tired or hear a certain song. Sometimes I wish I could just erase all the memories as it makes living hard eg there are alot of triggers.