Yes exactly.

I feel empty as per ususal. It feels like walking around with a part of my chest missing. I think partly I am trying to hang on to the feelings and this person as it meant alot to me but I think he felt differently as he has had relationships and people he got on with like me before in his past. I think our talk today about kind of trusting life and the universe has helped a bit in that it kind of gives the idea it is up to a power greater than me and I need to just give up wishing and beating myself up and just live life. It also makes me want to do the work for him in a way which is not the right way to think about it. I think I am in limbo and feel groundless in a way in that I feel I am learning about myself from the start and trying to live with more intention but I don’t know what intentionally I would like to do.. ha if that makes any sense. Like, what do I want to achieve in life? What do I want my life to mean? Where do I go next? Am I in the right location, relationship, job? I have tried meditating and I do feel a sense of calm from that (if very fleeting) but no answers. In the past, how have you seen your answers to questions?

You mentioned about seeing signs with L. I see no signs at all, though still feel that heart thing I said earlier on. I am trying to take your advice to heart and just kind of let it be and accept things are as they are but it is like my brain wakes up fighting it each day so it is like starting again.

I also went down the rabbit hole of soulmate Vs life partner vs twin flame (!!) There is alot of information, often conflicting out there. I think I am going to try and do what I said to myself a while back.. accept I still love them in my heart and just try and live life with that eg I can’t force myself to be over him and maybe by kinda giving up, it will happen of its own accord. I really appreciate you replying and giving me your advice and help. It feels like you have opened my eyes to alot of things eg twin flames and law of polarity and also given very good advice and wisdom. X