The thing is.. it’s not like I was or am a complete loner. Well yes I enjoy spend more time alone than the average person but generally I always hanged out with someone and (yep) got out at night or went to parties, at least more now, in my young adult phase. You wouldn’t necessarily say I’m peculiar if you talked to me, I may be very (maybe too much) introspective but can be also very talkative and blunt, weirdly enough I think this side of my nature was what turned people off, more than me “shutting up”. So I wouldn’t say I don’t socialize. I do but rarely of what I go through gets expressed and discussed or validated, simply because I know that not everyone can understand.