Sometimes I just keep it simply, I wasn’t feeling cut off don’t worry. By the way I guess you got it that I have repressed anger and unsatisfied social needs, that I’m still hurting for unlived parts of teen years and for isolation. What I’d like to be understood is that I don’t feel like I can easily be put in box: quiet loner, or shy wallflower because the thing with me is I had a very difficult time validating some of my pain because I didn’t feel like I was an outsider enough, or mistreated enough. It’s like I never belonged fully to a certain identity or center, or group of people and that troubles me because I didn’t feel like I could define myself, who I am and what happens to me, or what’s wrong with me