@anita, while I appreciate your insight, it is much easier said than done. I am broken and exhausted with life. I understand that reality never really does match up with dreams, it is hard to let go of the dreams you truly wanted to come true. While some may say this is a sign of weakness and moving on is crucial, I simply have a hard time letting go of what life once was. I mourn, every single day. I wake up wondering why I’m alive and breathing. It truly is a horrible cycle and I wish I could break free. But, for now, I am unable to see the larger picture.