Dear Anita

Good to hear from you.

1. I am feeling sadistic in the sense that I know he’s suffering there as of now, not because of our relationship but because it’s overwhelming to move to a new place and live there. I’m just happy for myself now.

2. In my view, we were meant to be together. He took care of me and my needs. He even cared for my family. He made me feel wanted and desired. He made me love my body. No other boyfriend has ever done anything of this sorts for me. He didn’t just tell me that he loved me, but he showed it. And that’s why it is hard for me to process his current behaviour.

3. I hope that too!

4. I would’ve chosen him over anything. One hundred percent! I would’ve never agreed to take money from my parents had I known this would mean us breaking up. I’m angry because he knew this day would come and that was his preparation? THAT!? And this is how you face a situation?

5. I did take his words seriously. I did ask him to break up. But he convinced me with I’m neither leaving you, nor my mother. He also reassured me that he would fight for us. He did the classic ‘I swear on my mother’s life’. But he has forgotten all of it. Even when I sent him the screenshots, he didn’t acknowledge.

6. When he was leaving all of a sudden he became skeptical of our relationship. He said IF we survive these two years apart then we’d end up together. Up until this time, we never doubted our relationship. There was never a question of IF WE SURVIVE. He never hinted on this probability. That’s when I realise that it’s all words and no action. He’s just speaking words which he doesn’t mean. And that’s how I ended up here.

7. I now know he doesn’t love me. He must have loved me at some point in his life. But this is not love. I love him though. A little bit maybe. It’ll go with time.

I’m hurt because this guy just fucked off and didn’t look back.