Dear Cali Chica:

“we sensed it far before we had any true awareness”- no, we did have true awareness when we noticed she didn’t love us- we didn’t have the education of later on, using vocabulary and terms from books, but we had perfect of awareness.

It was because it hurt too much that we closed our access to that awareness aka disassociated and as we earned knowledge from books and such, we got confused, all those terms but so little awareness of early childhood.

“it made us feel no one values us”- in the beginning mother was Everyone, and without her there was no  one. She not valuing us felt like the end of the world, so-> removed that from awareness.

This is in the core. Other people being bad, according to her, empathy for her because of other people hurting her- that is around the core, next level of trouble.

anita