Hello anita,
Just got my flu shot! I’m glad you enjoyed the little pumpkin – I had a silly dream that the pumpkin was eaten by a sea creature ha! The reason this pumpkin is so important is that – for me seasons and holiday decor is so very important to me and close to my heart. I’ve always loved it – however, parrot looked down on me for it. Told me it was juvenile to focus on it and a waste of money. She said she was too busy for it. Robbed the joy of celebration.
Yesterday was a nice day.In my job, I am a preceptor/mentor to trainees. (I was once a trainee). They are called residents. Right now I have a resident with me – and I had one last month as well. During my training, with all of this family stuff, my preceptors were so supportive. I was so excited to give back to my residents – and it has been a success. I have received such great feedback that I am a great mentor for them and it is just so sweet. It feels good that I am able to mentor people although I am going through so much on my own. It shows growth and the ability to function.
My resident right now, for the past 3 weeks I’ve noticed seems a little down. Yesterday, I asked him to close the door and I told him that he doesn’t have to answer my question unless he feels comfortable. I then proceeded to simply ask him if he is ok. He ended up opening up to me etc and it was really nice. 6 days ago I went NC, and here I was helping someone else with their mental health. I felt mature and great.
I will write to you about my crush through email because I am just so SHY AND EMBARRASSED about it. I’m like a giddy girl about this, as if I am 14! Even as I type I blush!
With regards to what you said about the dog – YES YES YES. This is what it is. How interesting. I think I must remind myself of what you said and also remind myself that he is a dog – so he will innately be fine, because he as a dog is just happy baseline. More to this is – how to have it affect my anxiety less when I am at home. I struggle with figuring out how to give myself and healing enough time and then also give him enough time. Remember, this dog was literally dropped into my lap by my parents – I was not ready for a dog at all. So I must admit it was a very hard adjustment for me when he came into my life. I think that I am still struggling with the adjustment.
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