Anita,

I asked her if I sounded short or rude on the phone because I thought my problem is how I say things not what I say.  She 100% agreed saying there were a few times she heard me on the phone and kind of cringed.  I was like oh boy.

My close friend Ben said he noticed that my behavior has been erratic the last few weeks.

The main problem is I don’t know when I’m going downhill.  Sometimes when I’m about to hit bottom I realize something is not right but I am unable to hold onto that thought for a solution if that makes sense.  My friend Ben’s description as “erratic” I believe hits home.   I cannot focus on one single thing,  I get easily irritated but move onto the next thing quickly, pile things on top of one another.  Kind of like if you were going into a supermarket lets say, for the first time, and you are hungry but only have $5.00.   There are hundreds of options in front of you to pick from.  Most of them don’t have the price on the item.  And you are walking around trying to 1. find your way around the store.  2. find an employee who knows the price.  3. find something cheap.  4. It’s super crowded and people are yelling.

Lindsey

Lindsey