I’ve been thinking a lot over this last weekend.  I really do think my ex just was lonely and didn’t like to see that i was with someone.  She found out that me and my current ex broke up and she moved out.  After that pretty much all contact from her stopped. Just really amazing to me.  You would think if she did care she would ask me  how i’m doing or something.  I think all she really cares about is herself and that i’m not happy or with someone.  She was the same way with her ex-husband when I was with her.  She HATED his girlfriend with a passion.  Even thought they got together after she left him.   Same thing.  She does have issues.  The more i think about it the more I do realize how much double standards she had/has.  If she messaged me or anything and I didn’t respond or said the wrong thing then I haven’t changed or i was ignoring her, but if i said the same about her she would get upset.  God forbid if i was to message her and ask her if she was ignoring me now or something like that.

Even though i am learning a lot about how immature she is and the type of person she is, I still do feel for her though.  I guess when you really love someone,  I mean REALLY love someone with all of your heart and soul, it’s hard to see the bad and accept that and move on to something else.  I am trying tho.  I really am.  It’s just incredible hard some days.  like today.  I just want to talk to her and tell her everything about how I really feel about everything that has happened.  In fact, I had a dream the other night that I bumped into her.  She asked me how i was doing and I told her everything.  I told her that i’ve never stopped loving her and that I’ve thought about her every day since she left me.  Well, before she responded, I woke up!  Just a dream anyways right?

Well maybe she is done contacting me for good this time.  I will just try my best to go on with my life and hope that she doesn’t.  Or if she does it’s for the right reasons.

TTYL.