i’m in a bad place.  I tried to make the most of the holidays.  i’m so tired of hurting and hurting people around me.  i try to do these things you say, but i still just feel the same.  Like i’m missing a part of me.  god it hurts.  i really wish i would have never met her.  i’m sorry to dump, but i have no where else to vent to.  All of my friends and family are tired of my same ole shit.  none of them understand, how can they until they go through this.  i see people that have loved like this, then lost, then next thing you know they are in love again with marriage plans.  I don’t understand how they can just be done and let go.  i want that so bad.  again, sorry for this.  i’m just lost and lonely.