Anita,

not sure where to start.  Apparently looking back I was having a bit of my bi polar version of mania: reactive, decreased cognitive abilities (concentration, poor attention to detail, over tired, irritable) it happens every 3-4 months I think. The mania is a slow build up I don’t realize what’s happening until I crash.  This has caused issues at work.

I’m terrified of either losing my job or getting poor ratings.  The last year has impacted my performance at work.  I have a new boss that is really wanting to help me improve.  So far she has pointed out 2 areas of improvement and I’ve fixed them.  Friday was a really bad day at work I was in her office for awhile.  I can’t continue on this path and I’m so worried.

To top things off, this am I went to pick up the kids I pads from my ex’s house. There was a card propped up right in front of them-strategically places of course. And I looked. It was from his girlfriend and she said what an amazing person he is and how lucky she is etc. and that she loves him.  They have been dating 2 months.  It feels overwhelming having to deal with her soon around the kids etc. I feel so overwhelmed.

Lindsey