Also, I used to feel like I was born to either live in a fantasy world doing epic things or in this world with totally different lifestyles, like certain attitudes, music, experiences fit me so naturally, but I am not fit for them (don’t know if this sentence written out to someone else that isn’t me makes sense) I guess that’s also where my feeling of not belonging or of being fragmented comes from: not only I feel detached from certain roots, it’s also like I have several different (unlived) potentials and identities that never saw the light so that’s how I feel about myself: something both existing and not, a lot of things that could have been, could be, that never was.