By the way today is a very sad day to me, 14th February. I’m working on accepting this negativity and telling myself that it’s a capitalistic day that puts anxiety and sadness and feelings of loneliness on many people and that what I’m feeling is influenced by what society dictates as normal and not, but it saddens me a lot to feel so alone today. I’m going in City to buy some good books if the weather is good.

Sometimes I definitely think I’m made to be in relationship, having a significant other and intimacy on many levels, so it’s not that I want a partner just to fit in, it goes deeper than that. What enrages me is that life seems to keep me stuck or deprived of it while for many others life is very generous. You know, sometimes I feel that the beautiful things of life like relationships, travelings, fun and passions skip me all the time and I’m only left with depression, anxiety, boredom or loss

I’m writing this keeping in mind of the very negative filter of my mind and of my feelings so I’m letting you know I’m also being objective of myself