hi again anita,

I am again curious how I could’ve been good as a child when it seems there are very concrete things that made me difficult and problematic.

For one, I was a VERY picky and anxious about food. I had extreme food aversion and OCD like behaviors. This was difficult for my family and made things socially difficult for me (not eating food at birthday parties or that other parents mare for me)

Also, other kids’ parents complained about me and often did not want me being friends with their children. I am not exactly sure why, but it seems like I likely was just difficult to be friends with..

I also cried a lot, would go to the school nurse for made-up reasons, find ways and excuses to get out of normal school activities.

In some resemblance, these things are still present in my life as an adult.

But something I was thinking recently was that maybe I was not shown or did not experience things that would help me feel more comfortable and confident.

For example, I am always very nervous about eating leftovers from restaurants. Recently I went out to eat with a friend and had leftovers with them, and I was too hesitant to eat any, so I asked my friend if I could be there when they ate the same leftovers so I could see that it was an okay thing to do and likely nothing bad would happen (nothing bad happened). I did this because I thought it would help me get over my nervousness about eating left overs in the future.