Dear Anita,

*The part that u didn’t understand, I’ll re-explain it more. 🙂

-> Re-read : When he is at home, he always do anything that he love (like ignore me), most of time he waste by playing his game. I feel he did that because he bored at me.. Even though, he chat another girl that he will be bored if she didn’t come to office.

Yes he did it when we were still dating. He said to me that he can’t be romantic. He treat me just the way he is, completely no mask, nothing he covered up from me.. no romantic dinner, no formally anniversary celebration, no surprise gifts. But he likes to hug and kiss me a lot when we dated. After married, he still hug and kiss me, but not as much as he used to. Sometimes, those things that make me worried also. I feel also that he could not really talking to me use heart to heart.

Actually the fact is she still single anita..

* –>another part that u didnt understand is about this..

Re-read : She said that she will take a day off that day. Then in chat, he said :”oh tomorow will be boring. Please come to the office tomorrow” then she said :”witney(another colleague) will come to the office” he said “it’s different, i want to tell u what happen yesterday” –> i guess he want to tell her that i and him fight the night before.

He admit to me that he ever told her about our married problem at least 2/3 times and he said he was wrong and he will not do that again..

He didn’t say to me Merry Christmas.. he never give me greeting for special events like that. I don’t know why..

Umm.. about how he treat me before..  since we dated, for me he is not a romantic person, sometimes easy to be angry.. but he still care about me, he never let me go or he also will never go even i encounter hard time, sometimes he buying something for me (everything that i like such as books, bags, etc) – he is not rich but he always spent his money for me without i asking, buy some food that i like mostly for boost my mood. The only one his lack is i can’t really feel talk with him use heart to heart.. i mean, he don’t like to talk about such as express feeling, he just measure anything using his logic, etc. I don’t know, is the logical men always like that?

And if ur question is he treat me more attentively, generously than he does now. My answer is sometimes and depend on the situation.. for example,before we married, after we fight, he often come to me and hug me, or when we were on seperate place, he call me for ending the problem with some calm talk.. sometimes he shows his aggravation with pinch my cheek.. but after married, days after days, months after months we’ve been through.. he didn’t do that thing again.. he let the situation still not good and just say “just hurry sleep, I’m tired..”

Honestly,  i can’t controlled my mind yesterday.. i just ask him.. why are u marrying me? Are u feel bored at me..? Then accidently i mention about his chat that he bored when she didn’t come to the office. He looks confused about what i talking about and swear that he never feel like that. Then he said maybe it’s just joke to her. Then i said that i want to change not too posesive, but he should chat with me more intimate. Then after that, he become angry.. he looks dissapointed because i always mention about it.. he feels that he already did intimate chat/if he didn’t he want me to chat him also. Then he said again that he doesn’t like this topic and he also doesn’t have any feeling to her, he just assume her as friend. Then the environment become cold and he really angry.. i feel guilty also, why i can’t refrain myself, my brain from those thought. I already promise him that I won’t mention and ask about his feeling again, because he said it’s also hurt him.. i don’t know and don’t understand, i just want to make sure.. thats my intention, only want to make myself relieved.. why he feels hurt..? But i already promise him.. I should try and make sure that it won’t happen again.. ?

*I’m sorry i don’t really understand about ur last paragraph.. maybe make it clearly or use example so i can understand what does it mean..

Thank you Anita..