dear Anita

me and the people nearest to me are healthy. My sister recently came back from a highly infected zone but she’s ok, she’s only required to stay home a couple of weeks and so us too.

For a moment as I read your words about me being aggressive against myself I felt the urge to add “well, I’ve not been as aggressive towards myself as I’ve been with Others, especially in my mind” but I no longer want to invalidate, belittle or not acknowledge my own suffering.

I’ve been also thinking about how things are different than before on a positive note, compared to a couple of years before now when I had at least one panic Attacks (or two) everyday and none to entrust, besides strangers on the internet. My dilemmas and anxieties were so complex and abstract that researching on the internet couldn’t provide me with relief, it was literal hell. I’m going to type here what I used to write on my journal to give you an idea