Hello Anita,

Thanks for responding so quickly, and I don’t plan on sharing this with him. I initially wrote it to give to him for closure, however I went back and read it again a few days back and I felt a lot of the things I said on here, were me being angry, hurt, me wanting him back. As I share the rest, you’ll see the wave of emotions all over the place. So no, I don’t want to share this with him. It’s more for myself, understanding what I was feeling then, and reading back on it to appreciate it all and try to use the important parts of what I wrote down to focus on where I’ve been hurt and try to move on.

And you’re right about it not being my fault. Since I wrote this a while back, all I felt was guilty for what I had done. I didn’t really pay attention to the fact that what I had done was only a reaction to what he did first. Of course, not a good reaction, but I was so heavy with guilt because he broke up with me. I don’t feel that way now, I know that I didn’t cause the pain, and that my reaction was something I had built up for a whole month and that day I just let it out. What troubles me now with that is that he may never realize the true pain he cause with what he did, will he regret it? Will he not care? I know though, that that’s not something I need an answer to. It makes it a bit more difficult going through, but I know I will be okay in the end.

Thanks

Alejandra