dear Anita,

We talked last night. All night on the phone! It felt so good. But i woke up feeling the same way. When I talked to you first. It felt so easy. Like automatically I felt better. And wad ready to be with him. But then I woke up in the morning with the feeling again. I know you say the feeling passes.. which is true, it does. But should it be there SO often? & with no reason. I was just crying in the shower today. Because I don’t understand why thus is happening. I dont want to be that girl who has a good boyfriend who loves her so much and just breaks his heart at the end of it. And I don’t know how to reallllyyy.. get over the feeling you know? Also, why do you have this approach? Whenever I Google what im feeling they always just say to leave him alone. I’m hurting us both by staying… so why do you believe that it isn’t so face value? Nd that it’s not somthing that’s written in the starts, but only a feeling, that will pass. My mom’s birthday who passed away is coming up on the 5th. I’m going to visit her. And I asked him to come with me. I haven’t seen him in two weeks. Also if i choose to proceed, how can I get over the guilt of hurting him, he tells me I’m forgiven but I don’t believe him, I honestly just think I’m a bad person. Let me know what you think? Ugh.

-lisa