Dear Puppo:

Guess what, I can relate to your childhood experience, I too “used to pray to God for death in childhood”. This means your childhood was probably more painful than the fictional character Kaira. I don’t need to know a lot of details about your childhood to know it was terrible. You praying for death is enough of an indication.

I am so sorry you had such a terrible experience (as bad as mine, I suppose). I wish it was different for you. But you know, you don’t have to suffer for it for the rest of your life. I found ways to not suffer less and less and less. Life can be good for you.

“Guilty or not?”- you are not guilty for your unfortunate childhood, for having been poor, for having been treated badly by your cousins.. and you are not guilty for the way this recent man in your life treated you.

It helped me a lot when I finally felt that I am not guilt- there is a lot of freedom in this not-guilty feeling. It feels better than being rich, I am sure of it.

anita