@Rhaenys thank you so much for reaching out, that is so very kind of you. I feel incredibly guilty and upset with myself that you have posted in this forum and I may have overlooked your post. I’m sorry. I’m happy to give advice to anyone who asks but It’s hard for me to seek advice from many people. I’ve always had one or two people I looked up to in life my best friend irl and mum. On this forum I really resonated with @Tim and @Shelbyville I guess I looked out for their replies as it made me feel safe and understood. Now I worry if I have developed some form of dependency on them. How pathetic am I?

I’m currently veering off course and because I’m so hard on myself. I end up self loathing. I’m ashamed to admit I drank a lot last night. I feel a lack of control all of a sudden. It’s the seclusion and lockdown rules. I don’t know.

I just wanted to apologise to you Rhaenys. I know what it is like to feel ignored and I hope you didn’t feel that. If you need any help I’d be willing to help in anyway I can.