Dear Daniel:

I understand your dilemma. My position is that you choose whatever it is that promotes your success in your 5th and 6th years of your studies.

But what is that choice, is the question. One way to go about it is for you to continue living where you are for a month at a time, and evaluate the situation every month: is living on my own,  still serving me, or not? This way, you don’t have the pressure of deciding now for the next two years. Instead, you decide every month for the month to follow.

“I fear losing too much time with chores, cooking, going to the supermarket”- these chores don’t take that much time, do they? And don’t you save time commuting every day, living in the city right now?

“if I come back home, I’m afraid to stop gaining the confidence I’m gaining from this new experience”- I’d say, stay where you are, for as long as you feel this new confidence.

Let’s say you are back home and you have more time because you don’t cook for yourself, but the anxiety created by lack of confidence robs you of focus and energy, so even though you have more time, you make less use of most of your time.

anita