dear Anita,

thank you so much for your reply ..

as u wrote “to not hurt this man’s feelings, you will have to …say and do what he wants you to say and do, for as long as he does? Do you give up who you are and who you want to be so to be who this man wants you to be, for as long as he does? ”

the thing is i cant fake things.i m very bad at hiding things i mean i cant i feel like i m betraying him or lying…i m fully aware which behaviour or affection wont hurt him but i can just do acting and say things which i dont mean…

yesterday in the video call conversation he asked me whats wrong and i couldnt reply .he was hurting i was hurting  too..than he asked ,if i m not having feelings for him i said yes … he started crying i was saying :i m really sorry ,i m trying ,i dont know what to do i was saying again n again..i have been trying i started to cry and i couldnt stop in that video call…and i was saying i m really Sorry..he said: take your time and you will be okey till than he will wait and tolerate … i said: ok

In other words, do you sacrifice you/ give up on you, so to not hurt his feelings?

no.i shouldnt be giving up or sacrificing my self  if i m nt having love for him or not  happy .because he deserve someone who loves him and i deserve to be happy too .if i m not in love with him now ,i wont be myself around him  and he wont be happy too ..if he knows i m not happy …

why do i feel as if i m wrong thats why i m unable to feel that love for him?even though it all started with his being careless ..