Hey Anita,

I have tried to; I read that some told herself, “Well, if I have lesbian-tendencies, I am at least bisexual since I have always wanted men sexually. So if that’s the case, then I choose to be with my man.” I tried it, it worked well, but then the thoughts came back AGAIN; I noticed it was because I told one of my very close friends about my situation. I mentioned to her that I did not want anyone to know cause she was out with her boyfriend at the time, and when she did not respond, I concluded that she told her boyfriend > he’s going to tell his friend > everyone I know from school will know (we have mutual friends in command). I went back to the cycle again and again and again. I have also gone back to the thought that since I couldn’t correctly c*m at certain times with my boyfriend, maybe I am, but I noticed it was because I watched those videos too much and because I was also anxious about him not liking it.  I have been driving my family crazy for the past week. When I help myself against those thoughts, it’s like my brain is telling me that it’s a sign that I probably am gay and like girls and also making me forcefully like them? Like what. When I looked back and noticed that I have never liked them in my life, sure, I use to think that they were pretty and stuff, but as I said, I wanted to BE them, not be with them. Sorry for the trouble, haha!