Yes Anita and TeaK, I have let this cycle go on for too long and there is very little space in my head right now for love and I want nobody but me to have it. Yes, it is depressing sometimes but I think instead of trying to latch myself to him, I will speak to you instead and in time, It will all be a distant memory. Fears are fears, they are meant to be irrational, aren’t they? I will have to stay strong and not give in.

I will keep in touch over the weekends or whenever I feel weak.