Anita, you are making so much sense.

But does that mean that it was only a habit and not love? what is love exactly? I often ask myself what love is?

there were plenty of times I felt that this will end with him leaving but he needed my help mentally and I stayed with him going over things that needed a decision. Helped him in every way I could. I felt what I was feeling was love… was it just greed to have him? a person who helps me break out of the shackles of my own mind? why did we bring out each other’s issues up front but could not solve them? because it was easier to be involved in other things?

It is true, It physically hurts me sometimes when I am unable to talk to people about me. I drink only when I have too much in my head which needs to be thrown out. Cause I self-talk unembarrassed then.

shed some light…