Thanks Teak for your valuable insights

To be honest, Ifeel you as well as Anita actually got me with my updates.

I completely agree with whatever u have mentioned above, thanks again for understanding, it feels really good to let it out.

Ya about whether he is a narcissist or not,

Well I think he is, but I only gotto know that in these two months, never had an image of him like that before.

He has indulged in gaslighting me at times and it used to leave me emotionally hurt.

He started to become more about himself, and criticising me for smallest of things, making me feel uncomfortable.

Whenever I used to bring these things to his notice, he either used to keep defending himself with baseless reasons or trying to be “overly technical” About everything(trying to show how smart he is) or when I used to really make him realise what was wrong, he would go entirely silent but never to own up and say sorry or give a rigid answer, unlike me.

This behavior usedto keep me hanging thinking tht he is trying and maybe he wants this because thats the kind of signals i used to feel from the conversations.

Now i dont exactly think that he was legit unaware of what was happening,

Since as I said he used to have some good opinions on intention of my other guy friends when we werent thisclose.

Now, the thing is

I feel I shouldnt , sort out with him whatever I am feeling right now, because somewhere I feel, he would still not own up to his part of mistake, and instead would either defend himself by not analysing deeply or would indulge in gaslighting. So, I dont know if this confessing would actually help me let go or not?

But a part of me also believes that if he cared even a bit about me, then maybe he will understand and have a bit of remorse atleast.

But I dont know what to do?