Dear sossi:

It sounds like at least in part, you are suffering from strained muscles in your lower back, and from referred pain (pain felt at a site other than where the cause is situated). In addition to X-Rays, I imagine an MRI exam will be helpful.

“Can it be a strange jealousy of her own daughter?.. competitiveness”, you asked regarding your mother.  I believe it to be the case because of some of what you shared about her, and because you repeatedly expressed how women are jealous and are competitive with you. I think that your mother really was jealous and competitive and you’ve been projecting her into other women (often inaccurately, I imagine). I will write more about it tomorrow morning, in about 11 hours from now.

anita