TeaK,

I’m checking somatic therapy now. I have tried traditional therapy without any results, hence I have nothing to lose.

I have so many fears and every day they intensify immensely. I lack the feeling of belonging, I feel isolated and cut off from the rest of the world. I have this feeling or misconception that all my relationships are/were superficial. I know it’s not true, but in my mind, that’s a reality. This morning, I had another fear creeping in my mind. What if I manage to get a little bit healthier and maybe if I manage to conquer my fears and beat the depression. Will I regret and hate myself for all the time I lost being depressed?! I think it’s in my DNA to always find something to nag about, the glass is always empty. I need to break this habit and retire the depression once for all.

TeaK, you seem to be a reflected and intelligent person. Can I ask about how you manage to conquer your fear and battles?

Do you have any relapses or “flashbacks”? Do you have rainy days? And if so, how do you reset your mind? Are you happy and full of life?

I apologize in advance for being too nosy.