TeaK,

It was sad to hear about your separation anxiety and battle with low self-esteem. Sometimes, life throws us curveballs, sometimes we hit, sometimes we miss. The most important thing is to take a swing every time (my mentor used to tell me that all the time). I hope and pray for your husband’s health. The most important thing is to keep a good spirit and faith and cherish every moment.

I’m sleep walking through life, and I will and want to do every thing to “wake up” and start living. Reading your story and absorbing all the positive vibes and positive words on this forum gives me hope. I wish I had the courage to reach out earlier. I need all the help I can get.

I agree with you- I wanted to kids so bad, I wanted to be the father I never had. To be their rock, be their safety-net, be their guiding star. As I have two nieces, I try to channel all my love to them. It’s not easy, because I’m not healthy, mentally and physically. And my mind and health is deteriorating slowly. I don’t want to be focus of attention, so I don’t visit them, and don’t spend any time with them.