Dear Murtaza:

I am answering the rest of your recent post earlier than intended:

“I actually meet most of the symptoms, Schizoid personality disorder, though when I talked to people that have it, I didn’t see a lot of similarity”- no you don’t fit schizoid personality disorder, characterized by  “secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy…  often aloof, cold and indifferent” (Wikipedia)- that’s the OPPOSITE of who you are: you are not secretive, you are a truth seeker; you are not emotionally cold or detached or apathetic, but the opposite of these things.

You mentioned a “Low Self-Esteem” and the pain involved, “such a horrible feeling”- well, I like you, Murtaza and I am glad we are communicating again. I am smiling right now because I am typing these words for you, knowing that you will be reading them in a few hours when you wake up. Good morning, Murtaza!

anita