Dear TeaK,
I agree, I have told my therapist about my childhood experiences. We are currently trying cognitive processing therapy, and the main focus on acceptance and “letting” go. At the moment, it’s too daunting for me, as I have to relive all memories and all the pain, fears, and insecurities. My “inner child” has been tortured till now, and I need to start addressing and processing the neglect and pain. For my next session, I have been instructed to write a letter to my “inner child” to address all the pain, incidents, and all neglect. To assess each situation, to express all my feelings, and finally let things go.
I’m also writing a “letter” to my mother, apologizing for all the hurt and pain I caused her, and asking for her forgiveness.
As I can’t get any sleep, and to keep my mind busy, I’m writing to my siblings, their kids, my relatives, my friends, my ex, and to my unborn child.
It’s a step-by-step process, and I hope it will give me some inner peace. I just hope I can survive this, I’m really at the breaking point, with no hope or motivation. Please pray for me.
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