“the past is already gone, and whatever has been produced from such past, can’t live here, and I have proofs of such”

what i meant by this, is that i can’t accept my inner child needs and persona, it simply can’t live in this world, a part of my inner child is insecurities and my mother raising, bad raising, especially for a man, so i won’t accept such persona just because my luck was bad, i really can’t live with myself accepting such persona

“the past really makes the present, doesn’t it? sadly“

that is the fact, the thing is even though i repress this persona, i still have some qualities of it (the easy way) (dreamy thinking), but i think im getting better with those, i can’t change who i am completely though, this is why i accepted some good qualities from this persona (the easy way) (being kind)

It’s almost cute, isn’t it, the way I was avoiding the question, like a child

i do think its cute, but a respectable way to not answer a question

different as in insane then

yes :D, though what’s you definition of insane? a doctor i went in the past diagnosed me with mid paranoia, it might be linked to that, but again he wasn’t that good of a doctor, i remember reading about paranoia that people with it tend to label people, although i almost meet no symptoms, at least in my pov

It is not a permanent thought

im really welling to take the label insane in order to prove that im different 😀

though its interesting that you meet such people in the taproom, it must be a one time thing