Dear Murtaza,

I was trying to point out how our reality and our truth is created, because it means it’s not set in stone, but can be changed. But if you prefer to stay in your reality, that’s your choice, you have the right to do so.

truth is relative, really try living in my mind, without any joy of anything, without a motivation to change, with only few goals (easy way/being not human), , then you can advice me and i can take such advice in account,

I understand you don’t have either joy or motivation to change. I’ve tried to explain why you might lack the motivation to change – because it protects you from pain that you may face when dealing with past trauma. I’ve explained that your lack of motivation to change is a defense mechanism. But I also respect that you want to stay in it, at least for the time being.

Moreover, it seems you’re quite passionate about staying in it:

i promised myself two things, one is that i do everything by my rules and way, two is that the only trying im gonna do to improve anything would be death,

So when you say you’re not passionate about anything, not true: you are passionate about staying in your protective shell. Which I respect, although it’s a pity.

i gotta say, you remind me of something i lost, people, norimes.

Yes, people cannot enter your protective shell… but that’s the price to pay…