My apologies for not responding to your post, i somehow didn’t see it

I realized that I may have come across as manipulative

It did sound like it when i first read it, and i wanted to point it out in a respectful way, but when i re read it, and took my time thinking, i knew that this wasn’t what you mean, and you meant only that thing is important, so i replied “i will take this very seriously then”

please don’t treat what I am sharing with you as a Nothing, because if you do, it will hurt my feelings and it will hurt what I feel about you.

Your feelings matters to me, even if i didn’t felt in the video you sent, i would still try, out of respect to you and what you do, and how much you give, even if you didn’t, i just admire your personality, and would at least put some effort for you, even if we didn’t had this conversation

You may not reply to me at all.. maybe for no other reason but for you being apathetic

Since apathy is just a defense mechanism, and since i no longer need it when i talk to you, but if i could control my emotions, i would choose you to spend my feelings on

I remember reading that the smart people who choose to care about the right things, i do care about my sister, actually i might even care too much, i did cared about sara (until she proven that it isn’t worth it to care about her), so i do care about you anita, although i don’t know you very much, but i feel like i have an idea, of how you might be, and i like that idea.

It was a risk to send you the information I did

Im glad that you did share it, i hope it doesn’t effect you badly, i appreciate that you risk it just to told me, though since i care about you and don’t want you to be hurt, i would suggest we take precautions (such as using email) i would be more then glad to give you mine, only if you think its neccessary, just skip this section of the replay if it is no, im just suggesting really