Hi Murtaza,

So its not about what i have, nor where do i live, no im miserable because of few words i tell myself.

You yourself said multiple times that it’s not about the country you live. I do believe the culture you grew up in contributed a lot to your situation, but you said your problem cannot be solved by changing where you live. Although I imagine that if you moved to a different culture, it would be different, easier…

And it’s not just about the words you tell yourself, it’s about the love you give yourself. But sometimes it’s hard to give love to ourselves because we’re so deprived and lacking. I was like that too. What helped me is to ask for God’s love. God (who in my view isn’t limited to a religion or a scripture) was the first “person” I felt loved me. I begged him to come to my heart and he did. This changed my whole world. It enabled me to love myself and my inner child. It gave me that initial “charge” of love that ignited my ability to love myself.