Dear Felix,

she’s not being fair with you because she can’t promise you anything about the future, she’s telling you to wait for 2 years to even start dating, she’s throwing you a bait about some possible (and as you say, highly uncertain) relationship many years from now. It’s one big nothing.

She probably just needs attention, and so far you’ve been her greatest fan, and now as she’s losing it, she wants it back. She doesn’t want you, but your attention and you pining for her. That probably makes her feel better about herself and boosts her self-esteem. It’s her ego, not a real interest in you.

If I were you, I wouldn’t agree on it by any means. It’s just going to end up in disappointment and you being anxious about her for the next 4-5 years.

One of my friend whom i told this situation, she said i should try harder for this girl. She said that god keeps leading me a way to keep contacting with her, and show me a way that i should try harder….

No, it’s not God who is leading you – it’s her who contacted you after she realized she’s losing your attention. As I said, it’s her hurt ego at work, nothing more.

Like i’m on my journey on accepting my height, but due to this circumstances, the insecurities came back……

It’s understandable that your insecurities came back, because a part of you wants to impress her, because she’s making you believe she is interested in you. But as I said, my impression is that she’s not interested in you but in your attention. So the best would be to free yourself from her – to wish her well and go your separate ways. If you’re meant to be together in 4-5 years, it will happen. But right now, it would be a bad choice to stay attached to her.