Dear anita, you misunderstand my example, and its my fault actually, its the opposite of what you think

My thoughts: (1) Birdman’s voice was society’s voice telling him what to do. Being obedient to this voice comforted him. He didn’t have to think for himself

I should’ve been more clear, the voice inside his head wasn’t a societal influenced one, it was more like a unique voice that tells him what to do, what i was jealous of, is that guidance, the guidance of the voice, his voice was separate from him, because of his shizophernia, you should watch the movie lol

(2) It is comforting to imagine that someone/ something greater than me knows best, has all the answers and I don’t have to bother myself with questions or answers. This is why so many people adhere to religion

True but for me it has so many negative sides

You were jealous of the comfort Birdman felt hearing his societal voice, but you remember the shame and guilt that was attached to your societal voice back in 2018- it was not a comforting voice for you

I was jealous of how the voice comforted him, in one scene of the movie when he lose his play, the voice tells him “So you’re not a great actor! Who cares?” the way he says this, i remembered my voice, the same kinda of apathy, lost love and all life passion, and it say “Who Cares?” Its undefeatable

There is a New Voice in your head (“this voice”). It is the Voice of Apathy, and you are hoping that this voice will take over “all other voices”.

There was a fight inside me back in 2018, two voices, the societal one and mine, eventually it take over, and its not new, its been living for a long time, what i like about the voice that its comforting, everything i lose and lost and it still tells me “So what?”, when i compare it to a norime mind, i feel so much peace, i forgot how people live

and you are hoping that this voice will take over “all other voices”

In your first post to me, you said “Murtaza vs society”, i already won, thank to the help of medication, i now no longer need society nor want nor desire anything from it, both my desire of love and motivation to do things has been lost, and i do miss them sometimes but when i remember the GAD, and how i was living everyday, i say its worth it, it wasn’t needed anyway

I will re read your post in about 10 hours, maybe add some.