Dear anita, my apologies for my short post, there is two reasons why this happened

A. I wrote a very good post, then i lost it, so i couldn’t say the same things, it would  be a pain

B. These days im so tired, my meds start to go deeper on dopamine, im feeling more tired, everything seem pointless, just effort with no reward, on top of that the heat is increasing, and my air conditioner is kinda broken

We have two sources of power, generator subscription by people (with a limited amber based on what you pay) and electricity from the government, which comes every two hours (unlimited amber usage) the thing is, the electricity from the government comes low, even if its unlimited, the air conditioner can’t generate cold air, it happens just in the summer when too much people use it, since the number of people increased over the years, and they did nothing for that, the power plan is so old, it was built for few people, back in the 90s.

Also, the plot made me think of you and me, of course, the Max-and Marry connection,  I mean

Yes, this is why i suggest it.

I was sad earlier that you didn’t post at the regular time, quite sad

I am sorry.

very much my experience although I’ve been quite intoxicated, literally and figuratively, at the taproom, enjoying social interactions with multiple people.

I don’t imagine you talk with  personal things when you are in the taproom? No one understood your pain in the past, this is why i said alone mentally, i don’t think anyone chooses to be alone, i think that its something like a bad luck.

normies support those in power, and parents are always in power over their young children.

I understand.

I felt badly about having written it to you

It was a nice line, i liked it 😀

“I can imagine this, but I can’t believe it, being alone for so long I developed this believe, sad“- you said earlier that it is impossible for you.

Impossible is over exaggerating word, what i meant, its very very unlikely to happen, to get back on what i meant here:

I can imagine such thing, but i can’t believe it, in my mind, i HATE things i can’t believe in, so i should’ve said “I can’t imagine that” my mind will simply won’t allow me, i can force this imagination, but i won’t enjoy it, this is why when i started to believe that i can’t have a normal relationship, i started to imagine pity love etc, back then it was enough, in time i learned that this kinda of love isn’t worth it, so i kinda ran out, anything that is a bit unrealistic, my mind will disregard it immediately, one of the qualities of having a strong need for the truth.

I don’t like this characterization, that of an “unfortunate soul”, suggesting a world of fortunate souls with two exceptions..

I didn’t understand this part, can you elaborate more?

To my understanding they are unfortunate souls because they are alone, in unlucky situations.

then ended again because he died.

It didn’t end, there was a glimpse of hope, the music choice support that, its sad with a little of hope, in the end max was looking at the ceiling, looking at marry letters, she then hold his hand, her friendship with him will remain in her memory, it was immortal.

 I hope that you will tell me what you like so much about the movie, and what parts of yourself do you see in Mary, what other parts do you see in Max?

If you ever noticed, in life max, its black and white, in mary its colorful, my life is kinda black and white, what i liked about the movie, is that its realistic, max life is similar to mine, he workd a few jobs, he did few things, but he wasn’t happy, he wasn’t sad either, just living, the movie gives a closer look to the truth, with a little bit of hope, there is people like max, and they will always be alone, and its because of who they are, deserveing has nothing to do with it, my brother is (who also on the autism spectrum) is one, its just so good to see your suffering in other people (i feel that im not alone)

In mary however i don’t see anything similar, i didn’t like that she got depressed and ruined her life over a letter from a person, i will never let an external thing move me like that.